You write a LOT of words about something you know so little about. I'm glad your mom loved you. I'm sorry others let you down. You keep demanding I give you evidence of God. Here's one:

https://medium.com/catholic-way-home/jobe-syndrome-and-scientific-evidence-for-the-existence-of-god-and-evil-937ed680ccf2

If you want to spend so much time attacking religion, my best advice is to learn what you're talking about:

https://medium.com/koinonia/why-atheists-should-study-the-bible-for-the-same-reason-we-learned-the-metric-system-14bb568b85cd