Beautiful writing Alexis. Knew what you meant when you wrote about being able to feel God more when you are in the wilderness surrounded by His beauty. A seminary professor once taught me that most people stop their religious education when we are children so our understandings of huge questions of life can often be limited.
The "why'' questions of life are huge so humans often get part of the truth then get confused and take a wrong turn like this poor musician.
But you're so right: when you go out into the wild and are surrounded by God alone? That's pretty powerful! Great work! Keep writing! You're inspiring many!