Beautiful testimony. You write very well!

How can we be "God fearing" and simultaneously totally love and trust him? And more importantly, how can we know he loves us unconditionally?

I reead a quote recently you might like: “There is a fear, not of the other but failing to love the othe. I see a glimmer of this in my love for my wife. After more than forty years of marriage, I still have a fear of disappointing her — not because she would punish me but because her displeasure displeases me more than almost anything on earth.”